I haven't always loved my life-for decades I viewed my experience of life as nothing short of a rip off! Was this really all there was?
After reviewing old journals I found I wrote the following at 18:
What meaning does life have? Why am I here? Will I ever be completely content? Why so much pain and agony in this body with all these emotions?
Life felt heavy and repressive-health issues were dominant and I felt flung all over the proverbial 'emotional map'.
I was forever seeking-seeking what?
I didn't have a clue. Others would comment that I seemed to be seeking as well-there was no comfort in those words.
I would take pause and contemplate it-and then busy myself with a different shiny object/project/relationship. Squirrel!
The numerous seeker careers I've danced with have included being an Airman in the Air Force, Supervising Poker in casinos, an OTR Truck Driver (I was 5 months pregnant when I got off the truck), DJ'ing, performing ceremonies in a ministerial capacity, Certified bodyworker and health coach, and a facilitator of anything to anyone who would listen! Let's not forget being a full time single mom to the sweetest hipster human kid one could ever meet!
In my life journeys I found I was not alone as a seeker. So many others feel there is something more to this life that they are not reaching or experiencing.
I saw the enormity of life really weigh friends and family down and I decided early on that I did NOT want that for my life!
So, I stopped looking for answers outside of myself when I realized that the common denominator in all of the life craziness was ME!
I chose to begin with me and where I was at that moment in time.
I looked at the beliefs and values and weeded through which were truly mine and which were ones I had adopted from well meaning family and friends.
Do these beliefs serve my life positively now? Some didn't and I told them to Return to Sender with Love (RTS) and they were dropped.
New understandings and insights easily passed into my conscious thoughts as I began to meditate and quiet my mind.
The next step was to take action on the thoughts that I thought were too silly to be acted upon. Taking action is when I truly experienced my life really starting to take off! I found I can take small action steps in the general direction of my dreams and goals and as if by magic, opportunities and people easily appear to show me my next steps!
Now I show and help others on their own journey back to themselves......and what an amazingly fun journey it is to learn Who We REALLY Are!
I wish Facebook had a status I could change from 'Seeker' to "FOUND ME-JULIE D'! "